As a stay at home mum (who should really be getting the children ready for their day rather than sneakily blogging away) I find myself regularly to-ing anf fro-ing about this whole stay at home mum business.
ON one hand, I feel fortunate to have the choice and option to stay at home. I feel that choosing to stay at home in these times is an act of feminism. Mainly because it is now a CHOICE for women, not an unquestioning obligation.
On the OTHER hand, in making that choice, I see my professional career slipping through my fingers. Sand in a slow timer trickling past at lightning speed. My degrees are simply pieces of paper now. So much time has gone by OUT of the workplace that I know I would have to re-train before even being LOOKED at at a potential employee.
Every so often, these thoughts and realizations shake me in my core.
What if something happened and I HAD to return to work? How did I let this happen? Am I still a worthy woman if I am unemployable? Am I being a proper role model to my childre? Especially my daughters?
Then the OTHER side (now beings talking in third person) shakes it's loving yet stern finger at me .. Of COURSE all would be alright. Of course I am still a valid human being! LOOK at your (my) children and their wonder and love and trust and SECURITY and SAFETY they feel in you (me)... This is what you (I) dreamt of being able to provide AND it's HAPPENING. See this as an OPPORTUNITY to create a whole new side of SELF (study something that interests you for interest sake, CREATE, LIVE!!)
Now, my daughter approaches me, scratchy voice, low fever, sore tummy... "I need to stay home today mum..."
I can say yes.
Right now, that is all that matters.
I am lucky.
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